i ain't holier than thou all cos of what i disavow

nothing is what you imagine it to be
i wish i could cut this part out of me (i know cos i've tried)
*glitter on my face from doing posters
i did literally cut myself haha
maybe they don't have enough cement
i can explain certain things better than anyone can i think
i know that i'm an optics situation
aging is natural so it's kinda weird that people are so scared of it
nobody knows what normalcy is thanks to capitalism
i don't think i'll ever this comfortable w/ myself on stage but you never know
and this is a fancy part of town
everyone's a zombie watching tv
that tv is all they know
i tried changing myself but i knew that it was a lie
i used to live a life i had to lie about but it was kinda fun (at least i told myself that anyway)
how do i allow another version of the thing that i find so bad
using a social network feels like i'm caving on my principles
principles AND self-preservation
BUT God put me in this civilization for a reason
so i was praying about this specific thing n then this dude drunkenly stumbled over to me...
i know that social networks can be used in a positive way but i really really hate them
should i just kill myself (all too common question that i ask daily)