if i already feel guilty n then a dog barks...ag sings Psalm59

this Psalm totally encapsulates my sentiment towards this world in relation to my paranoia
i guess i've been keeping watch w/ the Lord
i can't hardly wait to see the wrath of the Lord
ideas of reference always n forever
i know that it's somewhat delusional but...
everything has whatever meaning we give it
stuff happens totally randomly n it doesn't have shit to do w/ me but i tell myself that it does
it's super easy for the devil to fuck w/ me for this reason alone
discernment is crucial
the holier than thou attitude is obnoxious
not upholding tradition but upholding ego
God knows where my heart is at