i stopped trying to stop my brain, it won't work anyway

i get attached to what i know won't stick around
ag...too dark?
i dunno my mommy, that's typically the reason behind a lot of silly things that i do
i know that the world shaped me quite a bit
the culture, the nation n my God-forsaken generation
so conscious that it's obnoxious
i tend to be scared shitless of what i'm supposed to do
even ronnit scolded me n that's my bff
guilt n shame i suppose?
this (ag's existence) is why we can't have nice things
two nearly identical injuries on both ring fingers
maybe i'm just a dishwasher
i hate how i have to dissect everything n there's no room to enjoy anything
there are so many things that get stuck in my throat
i go w/ the thing that other people tell me to throw away
it just meant sumin that warrants emotion is all
ag wanna be startin sumin, thank you michael
how am i holding myself back w/out realizing it
giving up when you don't have to seems a little cold n heartless (at least to me)