the internalized aspect of my life *which is most of my life

i had better put out my "cigarette"
you have so much power w/in ya
they train ya to worry bout what a total stranger thinks of ya
they train ya to be boring n never think bout anything
eat the crap food that they lay out for you
they're all dogs, human beings dunno how to not behave like animals
i shouldn't be in any way optimistic
i don't want a man cos it makes me nauseous
i appreciate it more than those that have it
it makes me sick that you take it for granite
marquis de sade musical, i know i said that wrong
it's so cool that we have this ability but only the select few recognize it
i get having kids but not the marriage part
companionship...barf
i cheated on my boyfriend w/ myself
public places n social situations are the absolute worst
why would i expect anybody to carry it when i can do it by myself
why is that pathetic tho
attention. validation. confirmation. affirmation.
here we go again talkin bout identity
i can't just ignore the reality that most of the world lives in
i'd really prefer to bypass this negativity otherwise it's gon spew
such a nice little flute sound
i'd rather not vomit all over you
this sounds a lot better on the recording than it did when i was playin it
once you discover your purpose you'd better live up to it
you know i read the Bible n it provides respite for a world that's shit
not trying to convert, that'd be cool but i am at the very least hopin to inspire
the only reason i exist is b/c of God