what is the lesson here that God must obviously want me to learn

is this a luxury problem vortex
not following the rules today, not compelled
accidents will happen, so true!
women love attention even if it's terrible n creepy
there will always be unintended consequences w/ any favor
i know the hidden reasons behind most nice gestures
money, food, stuff...i won't reciprocate w/ my nether regions, sorry
multiple text msgs under the guise of spiritual guidance
am i a covert narcissist magnet
an empath that will never be the cunt that i truly wanna be
perks to ag: pretty entertaining n also not easily brainwashed
i can't stop my brain aside from getting trashed haha
venting due to my aggravation
am i just a blithering idiot ending up in these situations
do i just attract these people n there ain't shit i can do
he is specifically shredding the memo
i shoulda never smoked pot w/ him
those experiences are special to a person like him but not to me
i think about joel sometimes n get pissed about all that haha
i agreed w/ this statement that he made about me tho
ex boyfriend vs waffle house waitress
like i said, it's all about the weight that you put on things
my scales are way more spiritual n not of this world
he's probably banging some bitch as we speak
weird that i still have his semen inside of me
this ain't just about impurity, it's objectively disgusting
it saddens me that so much of our society doesn't value sex at all
must i be a thundercunt, vortex
oh! the woes of being an interesting person in today's society haha
the lies that men tell themselves about ag
simping is gross, subs are covert narcissists, can't do it not gon do it
the man in my head is mad
hopefully confession will take the load off, kinda sorta i'm still schizo haha
father philip had a good take very similar to mine