The Borderline Narcissistic Mother: Hatred & Punishment from Self-Hate

I recorded this video on August 23, 2016 and it was left on a phone I don't often use. Borderline/Narcissist mothers only know self-hatred. A self-hatred that will be projected out mainly on the scapegoat child but somewhat toward the Golden Child and/or the lost children who are not given scapegoat or Golden Child. The know hatred, punishment, negativity - no love - for their children, not really even the Golden Child. That is made to look good in so many ways but the Golden child, too, in differing ways are also very wounded. My "mother" could think of no reason to tell me that my father had died. She claimed him as her own, so of course she would leave me out and not tell me he died or want to "bother with me" as if I had no right to one single emotion when my father died and I found out 8 months later. There is not changing the relationship a borderline/narcissist mother denies you. Most don't seek help. Even if they did, by the time they did, you'd seriously have to ask yourself, why would ever open up to your borderline/narcissist mother again. Those days are long over for me.

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