October 25, 2023

HeYO,
I'm Tilly. I’m new here looking for some rumblers who are riding the same independent and spiritual wave I am. This video was originally 8 minutes long but I somehow lost the first version. It was a spontaneously messy rant on the beach so it’s probably the best thing to happen. I absolutely adore the beach. If I was a Disney princess, I’d be Moana because I’m a water baby. I was once more of the mermaid I am now but practise will make ‘progress’. Such a blessing we have in the north west of the uk, 3-4 miles of a long stretch of sandy beaches.
So I am currently out of work and surviving from finding treasure in charity shops and selling it on, or keeping it, if I love it that much. I live in a co-operative household. There are 4 adults (potentially soon to be 5), a 9 month year old baby who is the smartest little bean, my cat tila-tequila, 4 chickens and a bearded dragon Jules; who only likes to make appearance’s occasionally, but each to their own. We hold no judgement in this house, its perfect for me temporarily. I am learning a lot here.
I have been on a spiritual path since I was 19, and I am now 30. I have definitely had many spiritual experiences throughout my 20’s but I was also living through a hardcore addiction. I sought help last year and I’m in a recovery service. I may have to go to rehab due to needing the psychological support. I have ADHD and C-PTSD, and I was also diagnosed with functional neurological disorder in January 2022 which has affected my ability to function like I was did. At worst, I struggle to walk and talk but I don’t actually believe my diagnosis. My believe my diagnosis is a combination of childhood trauma, adult trauma and just working in the system. I have felt so much better since I got ‘let go of’ my agency role, heartlessly.

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Much love, peace, blessings

i HAVE so much to say but remember its just opinion!!!