For years, I looked for a support system and saw empty rooms.

Originally uploaded: October 2nd, 2022

YouTube Link: https://youtube.com/shorts/w-Vvy8rZfTw

Life has really taught me that it's safer to go through difficult times alone than to trust the wrong people. I learned this lesson the hard way. I asked for help many times in my life, just to be judged. For years, I looked for a support system and saw empty rooms. (or a bunch of jealousy, and those are videos for another day. Instead of looking for it from people who didn't have the capacity to give it, I decided to look within, this will be a story for another day, but on with the quote.).

We didn’t plan to become closed off to the world, but a lot of us were taught that it’s safer to go through difficult seasons alone than to risk being vulnerable with the wrong people.
We learned this lesson the hard way—we asked for help, only to be judged and ridiculed. We poured into people who never truly appreciated us. We didn’t just stumble, we fell flat on our faces—because there was no shoulder left to lean on. We looked around for our support system and saw an empty room.

And as much as we don’t want to hold onto these parts of our stories, how could we ever forget how that felt?

Healing is a difficult, frightening process. Some days, we feel light. We can feel ourselves letting go of situations that used to trigger us. Other days, we feel the weight of every burden that we’ve ever carried bearing down on our shoulders and our spirits.

It’s heavy.

We wake up one day and decide that it’s better to be numb than to risk falling off of another emotional cliff. We decide to run from our feelings for another day, because it’s the only way we know how to keep moving. We decide that we’re better off pretending that everything is ok, even when it’s not. And this is valid. We can’t snap our fingers and become the people we were before the trauma. We can’t pretend to be okay until we are okay.

Healing takes work. We need a lot of time, space, and grace to walk the path towards restoration and uncompromising self-acceptance. Healing isn’t a destination, it’s a lifelong process—and I think we’ll all be better off acknowledging how hard it really is, while choosing to believe that it’s worth the effort.-Mitchell C. Clark.

Thank you for the quote of a lifetime, Mitchell. Thank you for coming up with words that perfectly describe many situations in my life so perfectly. And thank you to my cuzzy Mariah for posting it so I can see it in the first place. I finally feel seen and understood. I will be referring to this quote for like forever.

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Originally filmed September 22th, 2022. Happy 1st day of Fall everyone!

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