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Podcast Episode 4 - BONUS/Extra Clarification

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Guess what? This is my first ever, Bonus piece, it’s from
Podcast Episode #4. I call it Extra Clarifcation because as
usual, I have a few leftover comments from my air checking my
previous episodes. I’m like dang, I didn’t say that. I want to
impart this wisdom (not coming from me necessarily) upon you
and perhaps in situations in your life you can apply these few
things today (not to be a Debbie downer, cause the facets are
kinda heavy, but I am bringing them up as means to clarify my
original comment ~ to be high vibe about it!).
I call this Podcast, Episode #4 on Self-Empowerment
Techniques. First Segment, Stop and Smell the Roses, I talk
about taking all of your Energy and Power back. Also, Seg 2,
Wake Up and Smell the Coffee, I have some clarifications
regarding the Strength in Numbers story.
Chinmaya Dunster is going to provide the sound bed for this
Extra Clarification, Whole Brain Podcast, Erin Episode 4
His song is Sight Meditation from his album Meditation Ragas.
You can listen to and buy his music from newearthrecords.com
and listen to his music on Soundcloud.com

1. In Seg 1, in relation to taking back one’s energy and power, I
said that our pushed away power is not unlike the energy of a
miscarried or an aborted child; I kinda just walked away from
that. I realize I didn’t mean to do that. (Sometimes I just think
you’re telepathic.) I say this, in large part because of my training
in the Constellation way and how when we don’t CLAIM the
truism or the truth of a miscarried or aborted child and we push
that energy away by “ignoring” it is like the energy of this unborn

child ~ it just floats out there ~ those souls, are often forgotten
and never mentioned, once we have a miscarriage or abortion.
They are so much happier when given a place to belong, even
tho they are no longer with us. In fact...by Constellation terms,
now listen carefully, a miscarried or aborted child ~ they’re
counted as children one may have had. In other words...say
you had two miscarriages prior to your first live birth. That would
mean that live birth, the child who survives and is alive...that
child is your third child. You had two miscarried children before.
Same applies for aborted children. Something to think about.
Also In Seg 1, I want to correct myself ~ I incorrectly say about
the feeding your demons that the nun’s name was Lapching
Labdron, a Tibetan nun from the 13th Century or something like
that. Her name is actually Machig Labdron and she is from the
11th Century. (And to add, she describes a demon as “anything
that obstructs the achievement of freedom.” For example,
demons can be fears... AND addictions like alcoholism - they
don’t have to be a gargoyle thing.) You can see (see
taramandala.org) for more info about Feeding Your Demons,
instruction and their schedule.The process of turning demons
into ally is called Chod and again, the story is about an 11th
Century nun, Machig Labdron. Lama Tsultrim Allione is the
founder of Tara Mandala near Pagosa Springs, Colorad0. She
is a wonderful person.This way is not for everyone.
In Seg 2, In Strength In Numbers true story I mention that I felt
that after 7 years of taking many steps with this challenging
individual...I could not clear the path. By “Clearing the Path” I
mean that, singlehandedly, I was not able to create a safe,
healthy and joyous workplace hospital-based doula
environment in which most could benefit from. I realize you
can’t please everyone all of the time, nor should you try.
Perhaps if I had know about Chod at the time, I would have
been able to Clear the Path. Rather is was led to the Strength in
Numbers principle.

And finally, I also say, in Seg 2, in the Strength in Numbers
story that I had to let go entirely. I want to elaborate on that. By
entirely, I mean letting go in a non-judging, spiteful way...and
that includes towards me, not just the other person; I had to let
go of what I judged myself for and hated myself for. In my case,
this process took several months ~ which also included letting
go of anything that reminded me of pregnancy ~ I let go of my
prenatal massage practice, any sort of teaching and my doula
practice. In order to recover, I felt I had to take a break entirely
and let go of it all. I know that’s kind of extreme. Granted I had
something to fall back on; radio work and I started my
Constellation training plus I had several relationships in which I
needed to deepen connection. Also, I had a good, supportive
home life. That all helped. And later, so did the Strength in
Numbers scenario that I describe in Seg 2 of Episode 4. That
helped a lot.]
Okay, that’s it. Hope you enjoyed that clarity!