can't stop crying...blaring trumpet CLASSIC why ag is obsessed w/ jazz...knowing the future at 5

kind of blue explains my general sentiment perfectly
the overall discontentedness is just sickening
i got bored of self-pity, have gladly moved on
you gotta make up reasons at this point, since biology is out
so we have the parts but it doesn't matter anymore
all they had to do was merely suggest NOT going the traditional route
such an illustrious career at sns, right
women shouldn't be given authority I STAND BY THIS (i know that there are exceptions but we're not talking about them right now)
i always knew that what i was supposed to do was crazy important
i always knew that i was too extreme for that kinda responsibility
helicopter parents raise kids w/ NPD
many have kids w/out realizing how much responsibility it involves
those that breed for narcissistic purposes will naturally have kids they resent and resent them in return
i am way too aware of the reality of mental illness in this country
since i dunno where i come from
what would it even mean to extend my bloodline considering
i used to be very angry w/ my birth mother
i ain't using technology to find her fuck that
some things are supposed to be a mystery
and this is why intellectualism exists
i'm cool w/ God knowing the truth but sometimes it still stings pretty bad
maybe this is the reason my mom had me
the most noble reason that anyone has kids right there
i definitely don't take that lightly at this point in my life
i work very hard cos that's what i'm supposed to do
such a severe lack of the stream of consciousness
i guess i am the most conscious and that's why i ain't too popular haha
felix triggered me w/ that comment but i think i made my point
i am the happiest that i could possibly be
i don't meet a single one of those societal standards
do yawl know what a telephone is?
so dude (homosexual) told me i changed his life and brought him to Christ
this is the only way i will ever get what i want haha
i'm happy that anyone receives my msg but you know it means more to get precisely the demographic that i was hoping for
it only takes one...that means the world
keep on keepin on, it's really just one person's sacrifice that can make all the difference
you know the future at 5
you are at your most authentic when you're a kid cos that's when your personality develops
schizo women shouldn't have babies cos the state will get involved
well technically NOT working for the govt since they'd be dead haha
we're obviously not wrong to be paranoid about that
child sex trafficking rings targeting poor white people been around for a good bit
terrible, terrible parenting but i know who am i to bitch about it considering
so many make this choice to have sexual intercourse so...
i'm criticizing you for having sex not JUST killing the baby, but also for having a kid nonchalantly and fucking it up in the head
the pro life argument doesn't hold up becuz there are too many bad parents and looking at the technological takeover, abortion is really a tiny dot issue compared to the bigger picture of "life" in this modern age
how can we argue for "life" when all the "parents" will be useless to their kids due to technology n whatnot
it's waaaaay too idealistic to assume that a policy will curb society's impulses and decades of sexual propaganda
abortion: small potatoes / sex: main course
they are passionate, at least
if i can't be effective than i am useless
one of the few woman that i have to allow a microphone
hopefully what i do will be noteworthy enough that maybe my birth mother (if she's still out there) will notice
i dunno my family history for obvious reasons
i can only assume that mental illness runs in my family hahaha
i'll never know and this void has always stung severely
not trying to whine about this but still
struggled w/ bdpd for a long time, that's how i know how to get out of it
don't rob me of this "lie" please, suicide prevention mf
what if i was supposed to struggle w/ this all so i could help others
this still makes me cry so much