this reoccurring argument i have w/ God + self defeat "musically" analyzed

enjoying a toothpick
look at my harr, that's pretty rad
i dunno why i just shrugged, maybe that's just my sentiment
that sigh tho
i am not patient w/ myself ever haha
i wanna be perfect...that timing right there was perfect
how self-defeating is that
how could i have this position as a Christian
why don't i act like i know the truth
how amusing it is how often we put ourselves into mental Hell
been there for some time, i guess i got a problem getting sucked back in
it's not a problem just to have a problem
living is so taxing, so of course we're gonna have problems
unabashedly mentally "ill" ie FREE
this isn't what we're told it's supposed to be
we're told to forsake to humanity cos it got too hard
don't think i don't understand the difficulty
medication is designed to get you hooked on it
psych meds are the worst drugs
i'm so sorry that you took that bait
many aren't conscious of their choices when they make them
women shouldn't have choices b/c they'll never take accountability for them
human beings can't wait to take themselves down the ladder
lie to yourself, pretend yer better
i'll believe it when i see it...but this _____ is it, folks until it's all over i guess