i have a vary traditional view of gender in spite of me + cannabis as magnifying glass

i have such a nice collarbone
there's a purpose for this shitty camera work
if i could do this i would choose this
if i had all that i'd fucking vomit, trust that
we can't not think about it, being adopted
prone to be wild, being a bastard child
i have no idea who or what i came from
being dead seems somewhat preferable to waking up every day without a sense of purpose
here you go you another bag of pot
not advice, just a helpful suggestion if you want it
smoke pot vs. kill myself
very limiting options right there but that's how it feels
choosing cannabis...much to my parents' dismay
the state is never in dismay about society choosing to use drugs haha
of course an AA sponsor wouldn't understand, their whole MO is recovery propaganda
why not just not go to meetings haha
i'm not choosing weed over booze
different potions for different purposes
i'd rather get high by myself than w/ other people
i'll probably just leave whoever i am w/ and go hang out by myself haha
marijuana doesn't make me that way, it helps me to accept that i am that way
the biggest lie we're told is that we're not alone
get to a point where loneliness doesn't depress you
live alone, die alone, enter/exit ALONE