stone cold maria --- (spoken word poetry + music - no singing or rapping)

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stone cold maria

sweet maria, let me tell you about my thoughts on last night
& why you caught me gazing into the void

I lay here stone cold, numb.....  
on a makeshift sick bed, in a straight jacket, 
naked in my skin, my most suitable attire,      
& you straddling my chest,
questioning my wasted years without you, 
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a mirror reflecting me from the ceiling,  
counting my eyelids shutter for every day missed, 
from the tightening grip  of your mouth, having on my lips,  
never to entirely kill me 
or to let me live in peace.  
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it's not dying that I fear,  
it's seeing the expression on your face 
when I take my last breath  
as I lay here stone cold, 
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waiting for you, waiting for you, my love to know that  
to be assertive is to be more merciful,  
like the day you drove your beautiful self to me  
testing my fortitude 
that's now succumbing at your grip. 
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I had faith in you,
I let you in to build a podium for your ego 
so I could occupy its size to fulfill your needs 
I've built castles for wintertime and 
tents for the summer coastlines 
while I was looking for shade by an empty lake  
when you looked the other way
I've carved a pool in my mind to accommodate  
dripping saliva from your mouth to top it off..... 
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everything smiled the day your mercy touched  
every scar you burned me with,  
charred a delicately tattooed me, 
short of a cure,  
gazing at your neck & backside
from the mirror's reflection,
wondering how crazy & warm a healing 
it would be from the inside.
= 
you're still straddling my chest  
cautious about delivering a final blow  
even though you know that,  
I'm laying here harmless,  
paralyzed & stone cold...
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for maria
April 14, 2003
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lyrics & vocals: azdi404
music credit: Tranquil by Whitesand
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