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July 2, 2023: Everything sucks and it is my fault. Everything I love is gone
July 2, 2023: Everything sucks and it is my fault. Everything I love is gone and all that I cherish is out of my grasp. I am tired and mad at myself. I am living in a disaster. I take full responsibility for what has happened. I just need to start all over again. I just might need to walk away and start a new. What am I to do? The strain and pain is building again and I am asking "What else do you want from me?"
Feeling trapped in my own prison of illness. I cannot give in to pain and suffering. Why am I here again? What is next. I have lost everything, I have nothing to give anymore. I have been updating my resume and now my CV to search for what is next for me. I have so many things I want to do. Yet, this illness is keeping me down and it is hard to fight and thrive. I am not giving up! I am just so tired.
403 pounds - Locked in a cycle of frustration. Back at Square One, everything has come full circle. This illness has taken everything from me. I am tired and exhausted. Just complete frustration and want some answers on what to do next. I am to blame for where I am and I just want to live again a happy life. I cannot give up!
If you know anyone hiring a STEM Business Technology Consultant please let me know. Here is the link to my LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/reubenhaynes
GIVE SEND GO: Please Help Reuben Christopher Haynes
https://www.givesendgo.com/GARRW
I AM A FIGHTER! Yet, I need your help... If you can please help here: Medical Donations
Anything would help!
PayPal: @myconjecture
Venmo: Reuben-C-Haynes
CashApp: $reubenchaynes
Zelle: reubenhaynes@me.com
I still have Myasthenia Gravis (MG), Guillain-Barré Syndrome (GBS) and Motor neuron disease (MND)
My life has changed; preparing for the unknown ahead, with hope.
If you need a roommate or have a room to rent please contact me. I am in the process of completely healing myself and need to finalize the process and move on with my life whatever that is.
I have no idea and just want to be at peace and be still and enjoy the rest of my life.
Of course, I want to have fun and have lots of adventures but, I have no idea what is next for me. I am searching and I want to know where I need to go.
Regardless, if you have an open heart and I place so that I can complete the process of my healing journey. Please contact me.
Thank you.
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