We learn from pain

I’ll tell you a story, When I was ten years old my father died, Shortly before he died after he had been half paralyzed for two years one night angry with me because I didn’t want to help him close the store and for talking back to him badly he tries to kick me and falling backwards he hits his head and faints, a few weeks later he dies.
After he died the bank calls my mother telling her that my father owed 300,000 euros for a signature to a friend.
My mother as a housewife has to run my father’s store or we lose everything including the house, my mother loses her mind and I lose my sanity thinking I was responsible for my father’s death, Very dark years with very serious mental health problems until at 14 yo my mother has me committed to a mental institution where after a week I am discharged not having any psychiatric problem but it affects me heavily in relationships, I have no friends nor a girlfriend until I am 22, at 25 I am prescribed Xanax and at 26 I attempt suicide with little success … . . from there I decide that life is not written in stone and that I can control my emotions and I decide to leave the past behind as a lesson from which I learned a lot, I go to Australia and from there abandoning the past I spend the best 17 years of my life, I live in Australia, Japan, New Zealand, Thailand, England, Scotland and more travelling.
I meet wonderful people and then the new journey begins the one where from my stories I can share and help other people, The only strength was to realize that what had happened to me was not my destiny and that by leaving it behind I could rewrite another one, 17 years now of wonderful stories, Adventures, Memories that still continues to be a wonderful journey, It would never have happened if I hadn’t left the past behind and used those experiences as a means to better myself and now others, There is no joy without sorrow as there is no sun without rain, It’s the only law I know that is part of being a human being But when you know how it’s horrible cold and rain you can teach others how beautiful the sun is and how to deal with the rain.
So many times there is an energy that guides us to certain people and places, When two people meet is always to learn something from each other.