3. Noctilucent Clouds - SuperOcean

Noctilucent Clouds
Words and Music By: Decillion
Album: SuperOcean

Is this all we are?
Bone and blood and nothing more
The shadow of contradiction
Cresting the breach
Little lights
The fire of the soul
Islands in a sea of black

All the pieces of me
Refuse go back together, neatly
A whirling mess of confusion
Waiting patiently
As the decay consumes me
Incrementally

Riddled with insecurities
Affecting me mentally
Never a moments rest
As the war rages on
A no mans land
Slowly, changing me
Slowly, strangling me
Slowly defeating me....

All the dirt,
That lines the crease of minds
The silt
Of inability
All my dreams
And every memory
Decays into dust
Re-ordered
And transmogrified
Into something new...
The metamorphosis of confusion
Into something worse...

Every time
I try to see the light
It's so bright I have to close my eyes
Never knowing
If i'm closer to the edge

All I ever wanted was just some peace of mind
And it's the one thing I'll never have...
Doomed to fail repeatedly
Never learning

Can't you see
How we're changed subtly
Never the same
Always a different game
A gleaming promise
In a sea of night
Lighting the way
But to where, I don't know...

It's so beautiful
Lights dancing in the dark
Blinding me
To the danger of what's coming

All my energies
Sifted and purified
Recombinated
Made alive
The first feelings
Of carnal flesh
Given life
But promises death
Uncontrollable
And destructive
Impulse control
Redacted
A gaping hole
Waiting to be fed

Every time
I try to see the light
It's so bright I have to close my eyes
Never knowing
If i'm closer to the edge

All I ever wanted was just some peace of mind
And it's the one thing I'll never have...
Doomed to fail repeatedly
Never learning

Can't you see
How we're changed subtly
Never the same
Always a different game
A gleaming promise
In a sea of night
Lighting the way
But to where, I don't know...

I've seen too many times
Never trust the light
Or you get burned
Lessons learned
Falsified
To draw you in
Before turning on you
It's always the same
It will never change...

Falling away
All the pieces of madness
A new leaf?
Or another veneer...

After you've failed
A thousand times
Your skin is tougher
Than the side of the mountain

Into the fray
Coming out a differently
Battle worn
But not defeated

I become the flame
Retribution
Vengeance untamed

A scythe
reaps what was sown
Without pity or remorse

In my minds eye
The twisting of reality
The crushing weight
Of omnipotency

A cold plague wind
Descends from within
The reek of carrion
Drawing me towards
Impurity

the sanctity of nothing
The contaminent
Matter itself!

Stillborn into a universe
Not my own, but somewhere else

It's just like a dream
Floating through night pristine
Unblemished
By the stain of technology

Naked
And ready to ascend
Only to fall
To earth once again...