i have given up in life. Am going to kill my self

as i write this post i have completely give up in life. After school my own parents refused to pay my school fees and i have been home for 6 years. i have tried to contact all my friends but they all disrespect me and call me names.

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over the past 6 years i have tried jobs but every job i get someone more qualified always replaces me. i have created over 20 websites some with more than 60k articles wit no success.

i have tried everything even asking for donations here on youtube but no one cares to even want to support me.

i dont have hope and i have thoughts of killing myself.Hard work does not pay. i have prayed while still putting in the work but i dint realy think god cares about a poor person like me from a pooor family. i have also started 2 youtube channelswith 2k videos, a twitter account with 27k posts.you name it i have done it but no success.

i think am going to end my life