Diamonds to Dust - Survivors Torment

No matter how many righteous deeds I commit, my past failure lingers
Frozen in that instance I can't seem to let go
I guess I was never meant to be your hero
Imprisoned in my own mind to relive your fate over and over again
Do I want a way to escape or am I looking for you to take the blame

Stagnant in a situation of your own design or is it mine
I can no longer tell
Is this situation of my own design
To scared to face the issues that only I can comprehend
Because I could realize that I’m the reason, the rеason that you ended up dead
Thеse emotions I can't begin to explain
These emotion are driving me insane
You are the cause to it all; you were the cause to my fall
I'm spiraling rapidly I can’t seem to climb out

The space between us has forever run out
Grief fills the solace I once had
I wish I could wipe the system
I walk a wayward path to solve this crisis
You were everything to me

Why did you ask me to take your final breath
I can't tell if I am moving forward or if I've regressed
Broken does not describe how I am
One day I hope I can put myself together before I waste away in the end