somehow (God) some way (God)...former self-destruction reel

dear vortex aka the internet...
do you know yourself yet, hardly everyone on you
everyone thinks you're the most important thing
replacement for God, so obvious
i guess that's what happens when ______
state of psychosis, knee deep in addiction, possessed by satan
underlings, you know that's a thing
when i almost drowned in the ocean
i used to be super duper suicidal
saying my final prayers in the ocean
that was such perfect timing
does anybody care, well Somebody was there
i almost drowned so many x
there's always vodka and more vodka
overwhelmed by His Grace
i didn't even know that it was Him doin it nor did i give a shit
life happens, you wake up and you're 37
this is way better than i thought when i was doin it
colorado sober almost 12 yrs
can't believe i ever got over that self-destructive part (well the alcoholic one haha)
i didn't give a fuck cos i gave way more than just one fuck haha, is that a play on words i really dunno i'm not that smart
nice shot of that semi truck
that's what happens when you dunno how to use the gift that God has given you...
damn roads *always n forever
crippled thank you devil+underlings
the magnitude of this is well, you've seen it
i don't want people to feel sorry for me
i need to take sumin, see somebody, go somewhere
why i don't cry on a whim
Spiritual things are an inconvenience and thrown away but now i know what God wants me to do
everyone's got one bag and i've got like fifty suitcases
people that know me understand somewhat
nope, not trying to be weird
i must internalize this infuriation
they don't understand your experience, that's all
reading the Wisdom of Sirach and pensive
He didn't lemme drown cos He knew i'd talk about Him doin stand up comedy
"joking," "satire" "burning in Hell"