'Cancer has destroyed me and left me alone. I should be allowed to end my life'

Stephen James Davies says he is living in hopelessness in his level in Cardiff

A man whose life has been "obliterated by disease"

is so frantically sick and forlorn he accepts he ought to have the choice to end his life.

Stephen James Davies, 62, says his aggravation is so terrible, his life is "more regrettable than a bad dream"

. He battles to stroll to his Roath kitchen as three speeds leaves him wheezing for breath.

The most he can oversee is to take a taxi to Cathays burial ground where he jumps at the chance to proceed to sit in the harmony and peaceful or a brief excursion to City ranch with companions.

There he sits on a seat and watches the birds.

"I'm essentially choking to death here," he said. "I'm getting torment in my body it's more regrettable than a bad dream.

I'm carrying on with this appalling life, I have no independence, I'm deteriorating. I'm contemplating passing on each day.

I'm stressed that could turn out to be laid up for quite a long time."

"I ought to truly be permitted to decently take my life now. "I can't get higher up.

I can't peruse a book in light of the fact that don't have the fixation.

Chemo has harmed my psyche. I was a brilliant person before with a decent memory yet that is gone at this point.

"I'm not a self destruction type. I'm not discussing self destruction. I would rather not kick the bucket.

I love life. I need to live however not when I have no personal satisfaction."

Stephen James Davies

Mr Davies was 59 when specialists at the College Emergency clinic of Ribs in Cardiff said his side effects

- outrageous weight reduction and knots in his crotch - were the aftereffect of stage four lymphoma disease.

In any case, he guarantees he'd been "in and out of A&E" on different occasions over the course of the years prior to that and his side effects had not been
Perceived by specialists.

"I had been sick for a long time," he said from his home.

"Things hadn't been correct I'd say for 10 years in any event and in that time I was determined to have fibromyalgia.

Preceding the malignant growth finding I just couldn't stay asleep for the entire evening and I'd lost around three stone in a three-week time frame.

"They were simply giving me dozing tablets since I didn't rest by any means.

They ought to have found the malignant growth quite some time ago.

I pulled my pants down at one phase to a specialist showing him every one of the bumps." After a rectal assessment, Mr Davies said he was
Told he had an expanded prostate yet wasn't at first sent for any further tests.

He mentioned a X-ray filter which was completed one end of the week and the next Monday he had a call from the emergency clinic: "

They said my prostate was fine and that I had follicular lymphoma malignant growth stage four," Mr Davies said

. "This malignant growth probably been influencing me such an extremely long time. Furthermore, over that time of years I lost my wellbeing."

Stephen at home in Cardiff

Mr Davies at first got chemotherapy for his malignant growth and said that albeit the aftereffects were "horrible", he was informed he was
In fractional abatement about a long time back. Be that as it may, the disease "returned rapidly"

he said and he was placed on a course of areas of strength for exceptionally including REVLIMID. In any case, the treatment made him so sick he halted.

Mr Davies proceeded: "I halted the second chemo in light of the fact that I was unable to inhale on it and I was making horrible side impacts."

Mr Davies said his ongoing side effects are developed spleen and liver which are affecting on his lungs such a lot of that he can't

inhale and is really choking. Different side effects are outrageous exhaustion and agony all through the body.

He's likewise had a chest channel put in on each side of his body

, the two of which have now been taken out, however which aren't recuperating and one side "ceaselessly spills".

He expressed: "On the off chance that there was a managed clinical approach to doing it [ending his life]

, I would make it happen. It would be the last thing I'd maintain that should do on the grounds that

I'm terrified of death. Yet, I accept there ought to be helped passing on in the UK. It's nauseating the way in which society appears to be outfitted to
Delay life including that of those sentenced to persistent anguish. England ought to direly view at helped passing on as a choice."

In any event, strolling to the kitchen is a battle for Stephen

Mr Davies' contemplations are reverberated by crusade bunch Poise in Passing on which says the "cover boycott" on helped biting the dust leaves numerous in "frantic circumstances".

The gathering needs the law changed to permit helped biting the dust as a possibility for in critical condition, intellectually equipped grown-ups with a half year or less to live

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