I QUIT MY JOB. Its now time to be a man..

27/12/22. After years of procrastination. After many business plans that were Never followed through... I finally took action. I've Put myself in a position where my back is literally now up against the wall. With many people now depending to follow through, I now know there is no other option but to make this work. And if it doesn't, there is no quitting.
We will go again.

I'm predicting that taking on such a great responsibility right now, still relatively young at 18, will most likely be one of the greatest feats of my existential career. - that I can state with full confidence.

Also predict that this business, which Is now a commitment, will come at the cost of many relationships, peace of mind, muscle atrophy and a lot less sex (bummer) in the short term... but hey hoo, id rather go through it now- put in 10 years and attempt to silence that voice in my head. The voice doesn't allow me to feel good if I don't immerse myself in some sort of self-induced stress and make the most of my life.

It would be cool if I could enjoy my 'youthful years' like many others my age. But I can't. It's extremely hard to explain, but physically, I cannot allow myself to wither away. Although part of me wants to 'relax', I simply cannot. At least not without hearing the voice again. (Chief Commander/ You, or whatever it goes by these days). I don't understand why it's truly here, but nor do I question it. It has only ever had my best interest in mind.

Either way- i've chosen this path now.
From Scratch.
And I have no intention of ever looking back.