(unreleased 2 month old video) please help me process this after reading description

please be familiar with my associated recent live stream and with me in general along with no extreme biases after critical analysis or at least some level of appropriate thought process. understanding that everything as a whole is too much and impossible to explore here. as always I welcome and outright demand the answers to the questions I've been asking for years from all involved parties associated, although I never receive a response. as usual no unlicensed and unwarranted medical diagnosis will be tolerated or any associated speculation where no evidence is present or been offered as well as no investigation of my concerns stated were done in my presence or offered at any time up till now