@454 Chevy dually 4x4! LOST & CONFUSED VLOG! HELP! PLEASE! AM Stuck HARD! God bless you all!

so the long and the short of it is kids after saving all my hard earned work for over 2 years to buy the toy hauler and to buy the dually that I finally do have now I'm picking up a tow truck back and for tomorrow it's just a sling wrecker. and it's for two grand and it'll work for right now to drag trucks back here all I need to do is hit the ground running and drag about six trucks back here so I can get a transmission for the red one hopefully from somewhere if any of you guys have any l480e transmissions out of a 92 or 93 GMC with a 350 I'd be grateful if you could point it at me and fire! plus I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place with this 454 it's got two important and it after wasting 10 grand it still doesn't run right and I'm just disheartened I need some help guys please anybody that can just point me in the right direction I've never beg for money here I never beg for donations I just need some knowledge that I don't have I always ran 454s and 350s with turbo 400 transmissions in these l83 garbage they're all electronic and they go they go they go stupid man I'm just stuck and I ain't got no more money cuz I just wasted it all on this truck so please point me in the right direction if anything I'm about to rip this transmission out of the dually and put it in my red truck cuz that motor runs like a top or I don't know I'll have to snatch this 454 out of the dually and then put a new motor in it and I don't have the funds for that I'm stuck I might just turn around and trade this thing off I also have a f450 Ford with a four speed but it overheats after like 35 minutes I did the radiator I did the water pump and I think it has a cracked head so I'm literally 15 grand deep into these stupid trucks trying to get me a wrecker and I still don't have a record and I still don't have a good running truck and I got three of them in my yard this is ridiculous I'm about to just jump everything and start over I'm really getting disheartened you guys please someone point me in the right direction or give me some prayers or anything heck I'll just take some prayers I don't need nothing I'm not begging and I'm not panhandling anybody that can just point me in the right direction please man as it is I'm going to have to do this transmission on my back which is fine it wouldn't be the first time and I'm sure it's not going to be the last but a 54 man I'm getting too old for this crap reaching on my back in the yard is ridiculous anybody got a cheap lift for sale? man I need so much help and I need a worker here too man someone just wants to build hot rods and do fun stuff and stay away from all the drug and drinking you know a Christian man like myself or a Christian woman even I don't care who rich is as long as they're good at it! anyways I send you all well wishes I love you guys a ton I hope you have a Merry Christmas and I'm sorry if I'm whining I'm just a little disheartened man I thought buying this Dually was the right move but maybe it wasn't?