DIRT & DILDOS Series (3): Lost Love & Blue Brain

May 27, 2019 OG YouTube POST:

WARNING - EPIC FLASHBACKS HERE; TASTE THIS ROAST, ALL! Old & new tragedies & mysteries - let's dive into this juicy recollection of my first love loss as a teen. Oh Boy, Ironic Times! The details have been gossiped about and twisted for decades...possibly causing further perpetual grief in my quest for loyal companionship. Mob sabotage at the initial sign of deep love appear to be a social/cultural marker. Best of luck explaining that to your kids, Life-Lamers!

As I've outlined, US has a propensity for keeping pure hearts & souls silent, tormented in circles of the same pains, paralyzed by eviscerating replays & mockery, rarely questioned, seldom respected for endurance or resilience. It’s as if no one got my take on things then or now, so I’m setting it straight, even if late.

I may live and die with what I call "Blue Brain"; it's a lack of mental stimulation, general barricading of ones ideas, stories & emotional expression, the absence of rational & balanced feedback/response to outreach. Pair this with heartache & it feels like slow death.

InstaGram & YouTube "CrystalCaw"/"Abstract Loyalty"!