WISDOM SHORTS - has your kindness become compulsive? You may thus be more detrimental than a douche!

Having faith in your talents is better than trusting yourself. We attach most bad things to this illusion of the self, so why bother too much with it. Your illusion on the self can change from toxic person to toxic person, since it's these folks we get attached to, also especially to their "guiding" opinions on others, due to ancestral karma.
Your talent is there and it can only become better, if you practice on it. But if you choose to waste your lifetime becoming better at screwing yourself, well... you're gonna become better at just that :D If a miserable life is all you wish, better keep it to yourself and don't make other people's as well, since misery loves company.