Brain fog, terrible guitar playing, incoherence, artificially induced madness

Brain fog, terrible guitar playing, incoherence, artificially induced madness . Cleaned a corner of the front door, sorta, that kinda dirt is super tough, the paint comes off with it. I could leave the apartment here if I want everything inside to be slathered with that poison again. So trapped, yeah.Being controlled, in a sense I suppose. I wasn’t gonna upload this, fuck it, casting vanity and what people may think about me to the winds,here it is. And the above mentioned affects and other symptoms not mentioned here go away as soon as I go outside and get a distance away from the apartment, unless of course they plant some of the crap outside[same as being used at that same time inside], on the ground, empty bottle, fornt door, porch or whatever else it is put on so that you cannot totally get away from it.