orkambi log 2020.04.08.0404

it is four in the morning. i have been having a miserable time of it. i don't know if i can even remember it all. after i made my log yesterday around 4, my blood glucose continued to drop. i had four poptarts and two bowls of cereal. i slept for less than an hour when my feet started to cramp very terribly. i had a banana and a bowl of beans for potassium. i slept until 5 in the afternoon or so. when i woke up, i felt i needed some stimulants but didn't want a whole lot of sugar, i walked to the gas station and picked up some sugar free energy drinks. when i got to the street at the base of the house, i was just a little tired, our of breath. when i got up to the front door, i was a little more tired. i rushed to my room, knew i had to check my blood sugar, it was around 300, which is to be expected given circumstances. then my vision blacked out, my ears started ringing louder than i've ever heard them. it was difficult to breath, i was intensely out of breath, my skin felt like a million needle jabs, i started sweating ammonia. this is was my previous two panic attacks felt like when i went to the ER. that's what those actually where, significant drops in potassium. this state of not being able to see, hear, or breath, lasted nearly two minutes. i just sat in this chair here and focused on breathing. i focused on the intense ringing in my ears. i tried to pay attention to the bizarre landscape i was looking at. if you google image search the term 'google deep dream' it looked very similar to that. that might sound like fun, but the reality, of course, was that is was painful, and intensely frightening. the point is that i couldn't actually see anything, not anything material. i tried calling my dad, and my phone battery died immediately. since then, i've eaten meat, i've had all three energy drinks i bought, i've been sitting around exhausted. it is energy draining. i can feel my body demands stimulants. i'm going to try to sleep. i know that is is a sub optimal situation. i need to talk to my doctor. but i also know that i need sleep. i'll call my doctor as soon as i know i have the time and energy to do so. i've taken my evening orkambi, though it really is more like morning orkambi at this point. i'm going to bed and i'm really hoping i feel better when i wake up. unfortunately, recent trends don't bare that out.