Depression. Despair. Why do I still sense you? God hears and answers you.

Despair is a very lonely place.
I know this personally.

My path was like this:
1. First my Mind and Body got exhausted.
2. Then my Spirit got exhausted.
3. Then my very Soul was very weak.

Everywhere I turned was BS.
Good intentions I believe, but until one experiences deep darkness they cannot really understand or help much.

I have been there my friend that is constantly hanging on and on day by minute, by long second.

I know you are praying.
God Jesus hears you.

He pushes me to respond.

All this time, He pushes me to speak.

What else can I do my brother or sister?

I do know how difficult it is to even lift a finger.
I know the disappointment we expect.

I pray that not be here.
I believe God Almighty Creator is answering you.
Not just here, but in many ways.

This is for you who asked.
Perhaps more than one.

I can and will share with you my experience.

I am happy and Joyful now.
Not a drug or some psycholical crap.

God Jesus Did let me die.
Yes, die.
Isn't that we desired?

So, I died in Surrender to having God Jesus fill what was empty.

I woke the next morning a new creation.
Yes!

My eyes saw things that were always there but I never saw them.

I laughed in Joy inexplicable for days.
I was full of Hope and Bright mind.
My body felt as if the wind blew right through it.

My desire was to learn about God.
Not because I owed anything, but pure desire to know.

My lusts of all kinds were gone.
How do you ask?

Good question. They were like rotted flesh that could never be put back.

Never, ick. The foulness and stench of that old body is sickening.

I don't mean something mentally chosen.
I mean it really stinks to high hell even if I wanted it back.

I am a new creation as promised by God's written Word Jesus Christ.

There is no way for me to describe it fully to you.

There is no way to describe despair to anyone else.

We must experience it.

I am just a man.

A new creation combined with God Almighty as a part of me.

I will do whatever I can if you wish to reach out again.
Or, for anyone else.

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A song gift:
https://youtu.be/KwIe_sjKeAY

OK. I am surprised 😯

I prayed for your song.
I didn't expect this.

Act. Please.