Dear God ~ Luke Johnson (Spoken Word)

Lyrics:
Dear God, what's the deal God?
I'm finding it impossible to explain the pain that I feel God, these years have been real rough, it's real nuts
How I've been through it all and still I can feel tough
Real bluff, what am I saying, I feel soft, pilled up with my hands on a pipe it's killed off every part of me, (the) soul and the heart of me, each and every artery, it's carving me up like I'm roast lunch, so done with the pain that I feel, I'm open to some new ideas (cos) right here, I'm broken, struggling with my emotions, it's crazy, every other days a new day to hate me. I'm trying so hard God so why forsake me? I'm lying in scars God so why not take me, and heal me, am I too filthy? Am I too dirty for your hands God, why not kill me? It's real deep living out this life I'm living, I'm giving everything I can and it's never enough, I keep sinning, living in this devilish land, I need summin', summin' that can help me to stand because I'm laying on the floor now, battered and bruised, I'm having to drag myself up, staggering too, I'm grabbing you for some help up, battling you at the same time ain't right cos I'm actually cancelling my ability to see straight. Can you see mate? I'm deep in a deep state and I ain't talking about an inside job I'm talking bout my mind state, it's like hate's taking over every other thing but you, I'm in a right state, wrestling you, like Jacob, wish love could just fix me up, and make you, love me, unconditional love, the one I heard about, ain't loved me, it's made me crazy, cos I feel like, your love should be enough, to put me back together again, the devils coming but I'm never gonna be letting him win, I'm listening to ya truth now, cos it ain't that love's been lost, it's cos a fear deep inside my heart has run a mock... I love you God