For Cleo ~ Luke Johnson (A Poem)

Lyrics:

Cleo

You're my eldest
I know you don't know me baby
Probably think that I'm selfish
But sweetheart
How can I tell this
It's such a sad story
The starts almost worse than the ending
I'm messed up
My life's savagery
I'm such a sad case
My middle name
Should probly be tragedy
But trust me
I swear that I tried
It's just the life that I was out living
Really wasn't the type
You needed in your life
You needed love
And all I had back in those days was just drugs
Your mummy had a partner
And I was a mug...
Really not the type of dad that you needed when you're there growing up.
Im sorry mate
From the bottom of my heart
I wish that I go back,
Right back to the start
With the sun peering through the curtains
You and me were on the sofa
My little person
Little smile made me feel like a real man
I remember that feeling, I felt like a dad
Mummy in the kitchen, cooking some food
I played passenger the 'let her go' song and it changed the mood
She didn't know why I'd play it
I guess these days she knows what I'm saying
Cos I love your mum, but I let her go
And I love you too, and you'll never know
Exactly how much I regret
Every step that I've stepped
It's been a struggle trying'a let you know
Cos I feel so ashamed of myself
For the things that I done
I wish that it was different
I wish that id run
To a rehab and got me some love
But I just bought street crack and messed it all up
every time I see your face
In a photo, or video, I need space
Cos it makes me wanna cry, it's deep, mate
I used to wanna go and die, doing drugs
now I swear that I would die, to prove love
And that's the truth for you mate
I swear down
You're always gonna be my daughter
I'm here now
And I'll always be here
At the end of a line
And I pray one day
when I've served my time
I'll see your face again
No lie