suicide

Not because I am wanting to. but because I have known so many people commit suicide and I still feel shocked. my best friend Lisa from the age of 5. stunningly beautiful. boys only went out with me to sit in her presence. our friendship was special. at 32 she committed suicide. it baffles me. then there are so many others. so this is the start of my song and trying to put myself in such a place of despair. because the baffling thing is most suicidal people never present as such. there are 50 versus to this song lol. the longest in living history lol