i have never left a place so quickly in my entire life

so i went to zanies to support my friend brad...
i fucking hate improv
i always feel guilty if i don't laugh
this mic was afterwards n the whole nashville comedy scene was there i swear so i fuckin bolted
now i am going grocery shopping
i dunno how people do the social stuff
i get a smidgeon out of it if that
every time we hang out i am disassociating
boredom or disappointment
i'd rather just spend time w/ myself n we get way more accomplished
totally present right now cos we are fully in the moment when alone
constant reality for ag: disassociating at a restaurant
i'd rather slit my wrists than be in another romantic relationship NOT KIDDING
it's way more selfish to appease society in order to save yer face
there were waaaaay too many people there that i don't get a very good vibe from
i can be kind of a cunt, it's just a boundary thing
don't force yer beliefs, it won't work
this poor kid i go to church w/
he followed me outside so he could confess that he HATES going to church
the lil' deacon hahahaha
most kids don't wanna be forced to go to church early sunday morning, going to school is already bad enough
all these lgbt people grew up crazy religious
maybe the experience YOU get is not the ones yer kids are getting
when are we gonna quit this groupthink
you actually can't tell that i'm freaking out, i think i understand now why people tell me that i seem so comfortable on stage
i made the decision so i'm just mad at myself
i calmed down don't worry